1. |
I'll Show You...
01:51
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2. |
Solitude.
07:07
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Far away from the gaze, I'll stay
I need a moment to discover
The day to day just tends to tear me down
I get no space to recover
Take me back to when I had some time before
And room to grow
Never thought I'd ever wish that I had some more
When times were slow
Teenage waste is killing me
Memories, of idle hours
Tragedy always got to me
Holding me from moving forward
Painted like a mess of colors
I wiped it clean
Tainted from years of self torture
I needed change
Far away from myself I've strayed
I don't ever want to go back
Day by day I look ahead, awaiting
Missing parts of me to grow back
Take me back to when I had some time before
And room to grow
Never thought I'd ever wish that I had some more
When times were slow
I feel it inside
My pain, my pride
Why
Why
All of me reconciles
All of me, like a child
Screams
Calling
Me
Fear won't
Leave
Haunting me
Haunting me
Leave
Far away I hope to fly just to escape the hands of time
Far away, I see a place that exists within my mind
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3. |
Greed.
04:27
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All that I see is well within my reach
I cast your doubt in me aside
Fools will preach but always lack the follow through
I always wait and make it mine
They give in
I often see an opportunity
I will win
An ancient instinct swells inside me every time
The more I own, the more a man I'll be
I want everything
You don't deserve it
Your world is mine
Raining, it's raining gold
Only one time in 99 we see
Belief in a self proclaimed prophecy
Belief in a world that's built on doubts
Change doesn't make itself
How many times will you watch me take the lead
How much blood will bleed
Will you find that nothing is handed out
Nothing is free.
Grab it all
Grab what you can
Grab it all
Grab the whole world
Grab it all,
Grab the whole world
Grab it all
Grab, just grab
Just grab
Just grab
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4. |
Change.
03:51
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Why should we force it to stay
The rot attracts the flies
They feast on decay we create
So we cleanse, to keep up with time
Again and again
We die, to be reborn in new light
We mold
How many times will we live this charade
We distract our minds, yet we hope to escape
Running, burning imagery inside my mind
It's nothing to me to leave you behind
Trying to hold onto something concrete in this world
That manipulates everything
Is such a fucking waste of energy
Growing pains are inevitable
Get used to pain if you want it all
Childish ambitions take adult decisions
When will you see the cage you create
Lay down
Let go now
All those walls
Will fall down
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5. |
Hopeless.
03:37
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Reach down for that poor bastard and he'll pull you right in
Misery always multiplies
Looking for a hand
Kick them down
Help them see
They don't change
They choose chains
Hope is born from pain and time
Regrowth occurs first in the mind
A change begins by examples from outside
Helping yourself helps them learn
Giving them help feeds their burn
They drain
The more help you take, the less will you have
In times of need, the strong will survive
Build yourself up out of ashes
See all failures as they happen
Hope is born from pain and time
Regrowth occurs first in the mind
A change begins by examples from outside
Kick them down
They don't see
They don't change
They choose chains
Kick them down
Help them see
They need change
Break the chain
Down
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6. |
Integrity.
04:51
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Walls that hold an ocean away
The sky is clear resounding with purity
No more noise to drive me away
I've come to my own temple of security
I searched forever and it seemed like a lost cause
But I'm keeping it together
Because I can't afford to lose my place
For some reason, the sun never sets on me now
I'm never cold anymore
I'm leaving my demons underneath ground
While I build above
Placing stones, I'm all alone
My island in the sun
I'm holding walls
With both my arms
Hearing rats in my walls
Seeing cracks in my floors
Something lurking
Coming for me
People pounding at my entry
Walls that hold the demons away
The sky is clear, resounding with purity
No more noise to drive me away
I've come to my own temple of security
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7. |
Pride.
05:26
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All I've done for myself
I molded the world
I shaped how I see
I changed how I live
No one knows this but me
How I rose from below
I remember
I chose how to change
In facing temptation
I didn't always turn away
I needed the lessons
And always seemed to find the strength
You'd be so proud, if you were here
I'm on a cloud that might disappear
Help us up there, wherever you are
Right now we're all stuck down here, just grasping at straws
We know it takes a lifetime to grow to the sky
But all this imperfection adds so much to life
I’m broken
Fractured
The state of mind
I’ve chosen
Is spread so thin
I’ve fallen
Trapped here
I came from the sky
Needed somewhere to land
This time trap
Illusion
Is a game I play
Confusion
I enjoy myself
Balance
Corruption
Holding strong
Reactions
Break it down.
Please give us something
We've mastered so much
We see the experience
Please tell us something
Speak proudly for all of us
We need you more than anytime
To show us everything that's hiding.
Ego is dying and fighting to survive
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8. |
Ability.
06:24
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My own limitations get the best of me
I only see to the extent of me
I'm pushing out into unseen horizons
Just to extend my own capabilities
I feel my way and bring it home with me
Slowly losing touch will make it hard to find things
Relax and let go
That's what the signals show, but I've forgotten how to read
Hit quick and then go
It's what I've done before, but am I stubborn and deceived
Finding all the things that I'm lacking
What's good to me is limited to what I see
And what I do
I atrophy, when I give in, to mediocrity
In what I do
But I'm so damn critical
Of my own delivery, my taste
Because I'm just an individual
With no right to fame
Restless nights spent wondering if my calling is calling to me or nothing
Putting everything into failed endeavors leaves a shell of someone else's dreams
Bury my face in my hands just to escape the risk of humility. Who am I kidding
Hopeless only in the face of death. I have time so why am I quitting
What's good to me is limited to what I see
And what I do
I atrophy, when I give in, to mediocrity
In what I do
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9. |
Fictions.
04:39
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Lies lead to more lies
History changes in due time
Life will get stranger down the line
Things get hard to hide as we grow unified
Hold onto your memories, the individual
Don't give to technology and become residual
We're reaching towards a balance
While we're fighting through the challenge
Grow up, face the lies
We all decide our creations
Own up, we don't have time
For your thrown up explanations
Concentrate, we're losing ourselves
Lies on top of lies
Hiding truth buys us more time
Silence kills us
Slows us down
Knowledge builds us
Shows us how
We die
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10. |
Pain.
06:42
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Make me feel
The stab inside me
I've been here before
I've hidden behind it
Cutting past it all, to find a way
Always hiding beneath the surface, waiting to remind me
The words you chose did something in me
Now it's overcoming
I have no reserve, nowhere else to turn
And now I'm dragging you with me
It's all inside
You would never know it
I likely died
So can you please come with me
I'm out of tries
Evading broken memories
I've changed into something
Something I despise
Take me
Break all of me
Take me
Break me down, all of me
Shared by everyone in this experience
Reminders, of the simpler lives we've lost
Make me blind
Wipe my memory
I'm tired of trials
The cost of being
Free
A new serenity awaits me inside
And through divinity I'm escaping the hide
We all just hide
I can't hide,
Patterns, get me nowhere
patterns, bore my mind
Patterns, in my behaviors
These patterns, waste my time
My time
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11. |
Comfort.
05:04
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You'll find me waiting
Watching
For perfect timing
Hoping for someone
Or something
To find me waiting here for you
In my life those around me hit their strides in my view
It hurts my pride, why can't I just take my time
Like no one's counting
Waiting, gets me nowhere fast
Watching doesn't help me try a thing
Tempting as it seems to be for me
I want it bad, wanting never works
Something has to spark my dreams
Something hidden within reach
I'm building
It's building up
Something of my own
I'm finding
I'm climbing out
Climbing from my hole
So far
I know
Moving slowly
I try to see
Every day
I'm failing
Growing
Desperate
Nothing helps me
Getting twisted
Further from my home
I'm not home now
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12. |
Deceit.
04:16
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I like to live in isolation
Securing thoughts inside my head
And over the years I've lost my trust
So many sides to reel you in
I find my way, I always did
Eyes always watch and wonder why
Enemies stand beside me
Hoping I fail in silence
Don't think I don't see you there
I smelled you the moment I let you in
Rats always get hunger pain
Threat always exists for them, killing them
Don't think I don't hear your lies
I knew it the moment you came around
You know I'll do anything
I'll go along with you to bring you down
Hear me if you can
No one knows what's best for you
And Never reveal your hand
Or they'll take the rest from you
Flattery can misdirect you while true intent hides
Eyes telling lies
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13. |
Magic.
05:53
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Illusions are everywhere
They build and upkeep the world that we live in
The truth is a miracle, hiding
Randomly popping into existence
But the threat of truth is real
It's hiding, waiting to topple every regime
Random encounters bring it to life
Blast rippling outward destroying everything
A chain reaction of the random
For the ones that see it bloom
A coincedental triumph
A domino effect of lies deflowering
So many lives affected by the propping up of false ideals
A challenging time is coming
An age of forgetting absolutely everything
A syncronicity triggers hope in the deluded
Fools they've been called for years, yet brighter than the bunch
Signs aren't just a figment of their imaginations
Affirmations build their hopes and cast them out from the norm
Judge me not
Veiled truths come
Read between the lines
Lines make everything
Three dimensional
We're dimensional beings
Three dimensional
We're all dimensional beings
Look into the void
Power exists everywhere
Challenge your reality
Face the truth inside
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14. |
Freedom.
06:02
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We all know it's a
Race to reach the end faster than everyone else
But if we wait and just pretend we're all in this together
Eventually fiction comes true
We all need some support in the failing world we live in
If we cheat and distort the natural equation
We all lose
If it's not one thing it's another
Always willing to sacrifice each other
Utopia comes at the cost of the dead
So we live in disarray instead
How many wars? How many murderers
How many cycles of history repeat
How do we teach individual morality
So many wells are poisoned by greed
If we want a revolution
It has to be more than a word we say
If it's in our evolution
Why don’t we leave behind our played out ways
Capture your thoughts and put them toward a common use
Based on experience we've gained
Logic and reason go perfect with consciousness
But we're stuck on destruction and pain
Leaders lead us into chaos
We must lead ourselves
Take the reigns make the choice
Take care of yourself
We don't need a savior anymore
We've seen enough of the metaphor
The key is the realization
Embrace your self seperation
Fear takes it's hold as you leave your mold
The only way that we reach the end is death
Death
I see pain in your eyes and I feel it deep inside me
The only way out of here is to stop
The war inside our mind is forever until we die
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15. |
I'm Sorry...
07:16
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You've been betrayed, I'm sorry
Lost in the game, I'm sorry
I'm sorry
See
They don't believe
You will find a way to be
On your own again
Eventually
We all fall into the Earth
Sorry
Life comes after life
Death, brings in new life
Reaching up in a world that's down in luck
I'm breaking out
Getting a glimpse of what awaits beyond
Past the gate
The opposite of meaning
Me
I believe
Something lives inside of me
It's eternal
In my own world
My galaxy
I will rise above the Earth
I'm sorry
So much hiding in plain sight
A journey awaiting everyone
But 1% of life is curious
The other lives are not
Never knowing
Never caring
We subconscious leave the clues that
We're all ignoring
Born with nothing
We learn lies and pass them all down
Art comes from somewhere
Truth in hidden form
Wake the fuck up
Wake the fuck up
Wake up
Time is forgiveness
Every day a chance
Why can't you
Just pay attention
To the little things
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